After sending flowers to Amanda I posted my feeling on Facebook which provoked my ex girlfriend Amy Boulter. Amy is a complicated young girl, I do feel so sorry for her, she just needs to be loved and made happy. But her current actions will never be forgotten. Amy decided to write all over my facebook insulting me and my friends and informing me of what she has been getting up to.

I’m surprised I’ve handled it so well, my girlfriend before Amy informed me she cheated on me whilst together and I felt like my world was sinking beneath me. When Amy told me she had been cheating on me I simply didn’t care. I wanted to hurt, feel down, depressed but I couldn’t.

I always said after my first girlfriend I would never let a girl close to me, when you make someone your world and they get up and go, that world goes with it. I’m currently on a plane in the air watching the sunrise thinking about these past few days, everything that has been said and done. I’m not sure what I feel right now as I’m still very drunk.

When Amy and I got together at the start she kissed another guy, I never let go of this fact and always used it against her, I should of just finished it than. Why didn’t I finish it? everyone deserves a second chance, Amy tried so hard to make things work, no matter what i did to push her away she always stood by me. Amy is an amazing girl with a massive heart, her intentions are good but unfortunately her insecurities got the better of her.

I knew when she kissed the other guy at the start it would never work, once a cheat always a cheat. I do ask myself, why did she cheat? The answer is simple, I wasn’t what she wanted, if I was she would never have cheated. I won't deny the fact i grew to Love Amy, she was everything a girlfriend should be, kind, caring, wants to spend time with me and create as many memories as possible. But without Trust i couldn't be in love with her. I wanted to be, but couldn't.

She told the whole of my facebook that she had cheated on my whilst together and it was the best time ever. If I had stayed loyal to her I would probably be really upset now, but the fact of the matter is I didn’t. I told Amy at the start, if you cheat on me I’ll make you’ll life hell. I succeeded.

I wanted to write back to Amy’s comments on facebook informing everyone of my side of the story but choose not to, I don’t care about her comments and no one else does. Her true colours have come out and she is the one who looks silly. Wendy and all always commented on my relationship with Amy and how she was such a silly girl to be with someone like me. I agree with this, i don't know why Amy stood by me for so long and i don't blame her for cheating.

She deservers to be happy, someone to take her out for meals, send her flowers, tell her she is beautiful, wipe the tears from her face when crying, create some amazing happy memories. I could of been this person if she didn't cheat. I probably wouldn't be in Australia now if she didn't cheat. Everything happens for a reason.

These blogs seem to be getting more and more personal every time i write them. So i'll be honest with you all, I did have feelings for Amy, she was everything a girlfriend should be, as the months went by the harder it became knowing  i probably would never see her again. I remember the last time i saw Amy, i had to lie to her because i didn't want to say goodbye.

Amy is a chapter of my life which i'll always remember, it was a rollercoaster ride in which i'll lust for in many weeks to come. She was amazing company and a great girl and i wish her all the best. Now i'm going to keep living the new chapter of my life in Australia.

I'm sorry for anyone who saw the comments from Amy on my facebook, they were rude and insulting. This is why i've taken time to write this post explaining them.