After sending flowers to Amanda I posted my feeling on Facebook which provoked my ex girlfriend Amy Boulter. Amy is a complicated young girl, I do feel so sorry for her, she just needs to be loved and made happy. But her current actions will never be forgotten. Amy decided to write all over my facebook insulting me and my friends and informing me of what she has been getting up to.

I’m surprised I’ve handled it so well, my girlfriend before Amy informed me she cheated on me whilst together and I felt like my world was sinking beneath me. When Amy told me she had been cheating on me I simply didn’t care. I wanted to hurt, feel down, depressed but I couldn’t.

I always said after my first girlfriend I would never let a girl close to me, when you make someone your world and they get up and go, that world goes with it. I’m currently on a plane in the air watching the sunrise thinking about these past few days, everything that has been said and done. I’m not sure what I feel right now as I’m still very drunk.

When Amy and I got together at the start she kissed another guy, I never let go of this fact and always used it against her, I should of just finished it than. Why didn’t I finish it? everyone deserves a second chance, Amy tried so hard to make things work, no matter what i did to push her away she always stood by me. Amy is an amazing girl with a massive heart, her intentions are good but unfortunately her insecurities got the better of her.

I knew when she kissed the other guy at the start it would never work, once a cheat always a cheat. I do ask myself, why did she cheat? The answer is simple, I wasn’t what she wanted, if I was she would never have cheated. I won't deny the fact i grew to Love Amy, she was everything a girlfriend should be, kind, caring, wants to spend time with me and create as many memories as possible. But without Trust i couldn't be in love with her. I wanted to be, but couldn't.

She told the whole of my facebook that she had cheated on my whilst together and it was the best time ever. If I had stayed loyal to her I would probably be really upset now, but the fact of the matter is I didn’t. I told Amy at the start, if you cheat on me I’ll make you’ll life hell. I succeeded.

I wanted to write back to Amy’s comments on facebook informing everyone of my side of the story but choose not to, I don’t care about her comments and no one else does. Her true colours have come out and she is the one who looks silly. Wendy and all always commented on my relationship with Amy and how she was such a silly girl to be with someone like me. I agree with this, i don't know why Amy stood by me for so long and i don't blame her for cheating.

She deservers to be happy, someone to take her out for meals, send her flowers, tell her she is beautiful, wipe the tears from her face when crying, create some amazing happy memories. I could of been this person if she didn't cheat. I probably wouldn't be in Australia now if she didn't cheat. Everything happens for a reason.

These blogs seem to be getting more and more personal every time i write them. So i'll be honest with you all, I did have feelings for Amy, she was everything a girlfriend should be, as the months went by the harder it became knowing  i probably would never see her again. I remember the last time i saw Amy, i had to lie to her because i didn't want to say goodbye.

Amy is a chapter of my life which i'll always remember, it was a rollercoaster ride in which i'll lust for in many weeks to come. She was amazing company and a great girl and i wish her all the best. Now i'm going to keep living the new chapter of my life in Australia.

I'm sorry for anyone who saw the comments from Amy on my facebook, they were rude and insulting. This is why i've taken time to write this post explaining them.

So many of you may have seen my facebook recently, for those who didn’t I’ll explain a few things to you. A close friend of mine was feeling down, her name is Amanda who is currently living in London.
Amanda has always been a good friend to me, helped me get job interviews in Sydney and always helped me when needed. I felt really bad knowing I couldn’t just get on a train and go help her.

So I used my brain cells and came up with a plan. It was about 2.00am in the morning and I was very drunk dancing in the club, I thought I would go on my phone and order some flowers to be delivered to Amanda’s work in hope this would cheer her up. The phone call to England most of cost me $50.00 plus the purchase of the flowers themselves. Money well spent! I have never bought anyone flowers before, never believed why people spend that much money on something that dies.

They got delivered to her work and I managed to bring a smile to her day. Knowing I did a good deed made me feel amazing, I was 24 hours away and yet I still managed to put a smile on her face. Amanda has done so much for me and these flowers are only the start of what’s to come.

I’ve spent all week with the same two people, Eli and Tonni! I originally met these two in Byron bay a few weeks back on a night out. During the week we did everything together, they were like family to me. When I needed somewhere to store my personal belongings they offered, when I needed a friend to hang with they where there.

I have really enjoyed my week with them and I am going to miss them both loads! Eli has become a great friend, when I felt like I couldn’t go out and needed to sleep, he would go buy some goon and influence me into joining him. When I needed to lay in and have a hug Tonni would hold me tight and make me feel better! They both are truly kind hearted and I can’t wait to see them again.

Most nights I would try and avoid drinking as I am starting to feel under the weather, I have drunk so much these past few weeks and I just need some time off to recover. Every morning I would wake up with my mouth so dry I could use it as sand paper! One day I woke up so drunk I picked up my bottle of goon thinking it was water and down it all! I would later on regret this as I became very Ill. I laid in bed with Tonni trying to sleep of the alcohol. I went from hot to cold every ten minutes, I was shaking and I looked so pale! I was worried I had pushed my body too far and I needed to be sick!

After half an hour of sleep I woke back up with a huge smile on my face! Rolled out of bed and went to the lagoon! Went for a swim with Eli browsing every hot girl in sight. I don’t remember what it is like to be sober anymore, what I have drunk isn’t something to be proud of, in fact I am disgusted in how much I’ve spent on alcohol. But the memories I’ve created have been amazing!

Most days were the same with these two, we woke up, rolled out of bed, grabbed some breakfast, went for a swim, had lunch together and played drinking games before we went out. We spent a lot of time with each other and I loved every second. I never got a chance to say goodbye to them before I boarded the plane to Brisbane, I do regret this. Maybe fate has taken control and I didn’t need to say goodbye because I’ll see them again soon. I can only hope.

When you stay in a town for more than a few days you start to know the locals and hang out with the same people each day. I meet a young lady named Tash who invited me to go out with her to a waterfall. Of course I went along with her to one of the most amazing places I’ve been.

This waterfall was in between two huge mountains hidden away from all tourists! We went for a swim in clear white water worthy of drinking. The wildlife was all around us, spiders as big as saucepans, fish with spikey tails, snakes as long as my own (MASSIVE), it was a beautiful undisturbed place.
At first I was a little nervous getting in the water due to how much wildlife was around. I didn’t jump into the water hole straight away due to the amount of wild life.

After the locals survived five minutes without being eaten I joined in! We ventured up the waterfall where I saw a huge rock, of course I jumped off it into the waterfall which I would later regret doing. I didn’t noticed how many big rocks were below me and as I landed in the waterfall I hit them quiet hard! Of course I quickly got out of the water and laid down on the rocks! After half an hour of pain we decided to head back into town, I should of gone to hospital but I couldn’t be bothered with the hassle! Instead I drank some goon and started getting ready for the night out.
Eli, Tonni and I all went into Cairns again painting the town red! I can’t remember much of this night either! Goon does this to you!

Thursday came and I met Tash again who drove me to a beach half an hour from Cairns. This beach was a little weird as it had huge nets in the water in which you could swim. The nets were installed to keep wildlife from eating us! Cool idea!  After swimming in a box we went to another waterfall in which I didn’t jump of any rocks! I learned my lesson! Instead I claimed a tree and jumped into the water! Great fun!